Before I was a mom

Before I was a Mom

Before I was a mom.............
I made and ate hot meals.
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a mom
I slept as late as i wanted
and never worried about how late I got into bed.
I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.
Before I was a mom
I cleaned my house each day.
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to lullabies.

Before I was a mom
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a mom
I had never been puked on
pooped on
spit on
chewed on
peed on
or pinched by tiny fingers

Before I was a mom
I had complete control of
my thoughts
my body
and my mind.
I slept all night.

Before I was a mom
I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put it down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that i could love someone so much.
I never knew i would love being a mom

Before I was a mom
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a Mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.

Before I was a mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every ten minutes to make sure all was ok
I had never known the warmth
the joy
the love
the headache
the wonderfulment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much.............
before I was a mom.....